Bad Days and Good Days

 Hello all!  

  I'm just popping in for a quick chat. Today is June 29th, 2023 and its a sunny and warm day but the smoke from the Canadian fires has come back this way and its a bit hazy outside. It's crazy how far that smoke has travelled and how many states its affected. I just hope those people are trying to stay safe that are in the path of those fires. We can only hope that something will put the fires out and this will all be over already. 

  Anyways, today is one of those days. You know when you wake up and you're having a good day, everything is going good then all of a sudden its a bad day. Yep, I'm having one of those today. A few words just shit on my parade today but I'm trying to turn it around and have a better evening. Maybe its because I'm a bit stressed about not working the last 2 weeks. Maybe its because on June 20th it was 1 year since my Dad passed away. Maybe its because I feel like I'm lost in life lately. I don't know but I'm sure I'll figure it out, I always do. See, I'm one of those people that always says "Its fine" "I'll figure it out" "Everything is taken care of".  But deep down I guess I'd like for someone to ask how I'm doing and tell me they'll help instead of asking.  Last year was a long and hard year and I don't think I fully recovered from it. 

 A little backstory about last year. My Dad went into the hospital and he was there almost 3 months. Surgeries, recovery, problems from the surgeries. Then he came home and not even a week later he was taken by ambulance and a week later he passed away. Mom was extremely sad and had a hard time trying to do things on her own, so of course I was there to help her with anything needed. This happened the end of June. Then in September, Mom went to the hospital and was in there almost 2 weeks. One thing after another happened and it was a miserable year. I didn't get the chance to fully grieve because of everything going on and I think now its just coming out and I'm feeling a bit blah. Also, I'm the strong one of the family. I try not to cry. I say I'm fine. I'm there for everyone. I'm a bit tired of being the strong one! 

 But, this year has been pretty good so far and I shouldn't complain about anything, and I try not to. Its just today is one of those days, a bad day you'd call it.  We all have good and bad days and we all get through them. So, with that being said, I'm off to finish my cleaning and yard work and hopefully have a better day. 

I thank you all for listening to my bad day rant and if you need someone to listen to your bad day, I'm here. Have a good rest of your day! 😁

Much love and support 💖